I have to challenge those in power. I have to speak up for my community. I have to speak up for marginalised people and communities. Black lives matter, and when four people die in Haringey in the space of three months that ought to command attention.
Why is the conversation just about stop and search? Or police numbers and law and order? Why do we only get a scrambled response? What about years of cuts? What about generations of neglect of my community? It's the same old sound bites that don't cut it.
This narrative ignores organised crime networks behind the violence in our streets - we condemn and criminalise black youths but excuse those who buy and take drugs.